Storms rock. There's the sunshine afterward to look forward to.
Monday, March 31, 2008
Recommitment
I figured it out. It was my fault, really.
The answer was: Yes, indeed, L was taking over my system. Slowly but surely, my mind was being overtaken by L's mindset, L's personality, L's habits. I was on my way to losing Matthew Yee totally. And I figured out the reason why.
It was simple, really. It was my own pride and arrogance. People kept on saying that I was so good at being L that I started to feel that my acting skill was that good. I started to crave the attention. I enjoyed being in the spotlight, and if L helped me do that, L I would be.
But I had forgotten. Forgotten the origin of my acting abilities, forgotten how I got so many supporting friends in the first place. And so it was that yesterday night, with this revelation, that I recommitted my whole life and purpose to God once again, and I gotta say, I've been pursuing life neglecting Him for so long that I forgot how much fun it was to live life when He was there. A great load has been taken off my back (literally, get the L reference...) and once again, I'm seeing life through the bright, colourful and optimistic eyes of Matthew Yee rather than the sharp, intelligent, but grey eyes of L Lawliet.
